49

Do you google your dreams? I often have the most vivid dreams that I can’t fully figure out the meaning of, so I look up the prevailing symbols my subconscious imagines at night. Often times, I will dream of a number. It’s even creepier when the number then appears to me throughout the next day or week. 

A couple of weeks ago, the work week started with an unexpected job offer. My former boss, with whom I’m still friends, is losing a beloved full time staff member. The job was mine if I wanted it. 

I was initially very tempted. After all, I used to love working there. I loved the patients. I loved my colleagues. But I realized I was nostalgic for the way things used to be before the rehab department was sold to a contract agency. Everything changed after that. I felt like I was serving the corporate machine, not my beloved patients. So, after some soul searching, I turned down the offer.

Truly, I’m very happy where I am. I love the company I work for. I love my colleagues. I love the different opportunities I have, the size of the facility, and the team atmosphere. I feel valued. I feel at home, but also have room to grow. And I love the freedom of working PRN. 

And the morning after I made the final decision, I had a dream with the number 49 in it. That number appeared to me 2 more times at work the next day as a patient’s age and again as a patient’s number of years married. 

Looking up the number, this “angel number” indicates a symbol of intuition and inner strength. It is a message that I have made a good decision based on my instincts. I’m going to go with that. 

During Sunday’s run with my marathon training team that week, I happened to spend some time with a fellow runner who believes in things like this, and she was very affirming of the connection of 49 and what I’d found it to mean. It may sound silly, but I believe the dream was affirming my choice!

Since then, I’ve had several more signs that I am doing the right thing, and working in the right place. My patients have given our case managers great feedback about their experiences with me. I’ve had my colleagues support me when I was anxious about a work issue. And I was able to help one of the OT’s with serial casting, teaching him a few new techniques to make the process easier, and he was very appreciative. 

And then a new angel number appeared: 10. I dreamed about it, and then I went out to dinner with my daughter, and we were seated at table 10! Apparently this number indicates that I should have faith in my chosen path. I’m going to go with that, too. 

For now, work is busy, but work is good. It’s taken me a long time to get to this place, and for that, I’m grateful.

Do you ever dream about specific things like numbers? Do you ever google them to see what they mean? I’d love to hear what you think! As always, I hope you all are safe and healthy.