The process of changing medications sucks. Logically, the point of medications to manage anxiety, nightmares, and the eventual slide into the dark hole of depression is to make you feel better, right? But no one tells you how challenging the process of deducing what is best can be. I started this exercise last week. It’sContinue reading “I Have Become Uncomfortably Numb”
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I’m a Fucking Lunatic
This is what walking into a psychiatrist’s office feels like. It’s finally come to this. And the stigma I feel is real. My primary care doctor waived the white flag on managing my psych issues and referred me to the pros. Nothing seals the deal on confirming you are crazy than that. Admitting defeat isContinue reading “I’m a Fucking Lunatic”
Under Pressure
Battling my new diagnosis of hypertension I just checked my blood pressure. It is 178/108. Yikes. Yes, I forgot to take my meds this morning, so my little blue pill went down the hatch. No, not that little blue pill. Losartan. This has been my life since the shooting. And as much as I hateContinue reading “Under Pressure”
It’s Time to Play!
Why adults should make time for meditative art I’ve been allowing myself time to play. Play? Yes. Play. I’m a serial craft addict, and I do fall in love hard and fast for new creative outlets. I’ve done photography, which led to scrapbooking and even better photography, tie-dye art, mixed media canvases, jewelry making, yarnContinue reading “It’s Time to Play!”
Living in Hypervigilance is a Special Version of Personal Hell
Trauma Changes Everything A deer roams in our backyard. The doe is stunning. And as she carefully surveys her surroundings, she signals for her babies to follow. They emerge from the woods, keeping close to Mama, their white spots indicating their infancy. They begin to pillage the green leaves emerging as spring has possessed theContinue reading “Living in Hypervigilance is a Special Version of Personal Hell”
Addiction is Not a Moral Failing
It’s a symptom of trauma. Do you think you know who an addict is? Think again. Our society generally pegs people with mental health issues as being guilty of some kind of moral failure, particularly if your issues include addiction. You lack self-control. You don’t trust God enough with your problems. You are too lazyContinue reading “Addiction is Not a Moral Failing”
2023 Said, “Hold My Beer!”
Will 2024 be better? This should be a year of new beginnings. That is what we all desire as we flip that calendar to January, right? A fresh start. Setting lofty goals to achieve great things. But 2023 was rough, y’all. I merely survived, so I’ll count that as a win. It started with aContinue reading “2023 Said, “Hold My Beer!””
I’m Not Prepared to Handle the Stigma
My post-rehab world sucks. It’s one thing to admit that you go to a therapist for help to handle all of your emotional shit. It’s quite another to own up to the fact that you spent 45 days in an inpatient treatment facility. It’s admitting that you are a whole other level of crazy. EvenContinue reading “I’m Not Prepared to Handle the Stigma”
Guns Are Not Toys
A Poem Guns are not toys. Guns are not fun. Just look at all the harm they have done. My life is a mess. Improving, at best. I have no more demons to confess. Forever impacted By this event protracted. A smudge in my life that should be redacted. I went to prison While youContinue reading “Guns Are Not Toys”
Simone Biles is Back!
And maybe even stronger than ever There’s no question that Simone Biles is the greatest gymnast of all time. And as tricky a sport as gymnastics is, one could argue that she is the greatest athlete of all time. As a former gymnast, I will forever be a fan of this beautiful and very dangerousContinue reading “Simone Biles is Back!”
Anne the Vegan 